I can’t breath
The pain hurts so bad
I can’t breath
I’m painfully sad
I can’t breath
The worlds closing in
I can’t breath
I’m at my wit’s end
I can’t breath
My mind’s leaving me
I can’t breath
Let this breath set me free
I can’t breath
I don’t want to go on
I can’t breath
If this will last all life long
I can’t breath
Stop it please, stop it now
I can’t breath
Tell me when, show me how
I can’t breath
Lift this weight crushing me
I can’t breath
Heal my heart, set me free
October 27, 1997
I was no longer able to “ask” for help, so I wrote this poem and shared it with a close group of friends via email. Luckily, I got the support and encouragement I needed which included professional guidance as well. I don’t share this information often, but it is important to note that I did have a complete plan to commit suicide at this stage and I am forever grateful to Robert Elshout for sensing my struggle and offering help all the way from the Netherlands. He and a group of others provided distance Reiki and the results were astounding. I was given the gift of Reiki I when I traveled to the Netherlands the following year in a 3 day workshop with Robert and his Reiki Master Tineke “Tiny”.
Julia Ann Ferguson
Tags: cry for help, depression, reiki, suicidal, suicide
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