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Posts Tagged ‘depression’

A Depressing Weekend

April 10, 2012 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Depression

  Who is to blame for my melancholy? Is there such a thing? For if I am to believe my own misery and lack of worth Than it is my pitiful existence that has brought it on. Pity is not what I am after.  Nor  sympathy.  For my truth is what it is.  Painful. ~ […]

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Two more poems showing my dark state of mind at this time

January 5, 2012 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Depression, Gloomy or Darker Poems

  Thoughts Simple really, Really simple. Simply real, how I feel. The holidays are approaching – make them stop! Reverse, rewind – I don’t have the time to play this role. No desire to act this one through. What can I do? Please lets just pass these ones by. No tree, no joy, no Christmas […]

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January 5, 2012 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Depression, Domestic Violence, Gloomy or Darker Poems

    The same walls The same place,  space The same face The same time The same day Will it ever go away? This feeling of non existing Of really not being Painted on the wall A shadow after all Graffiti for the blind Tactile only in my mind The same dream The same song […]

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Breathless

January 5, 2012 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Depression, Domestic Violence, Gloomy or Darker Poems, Grief

  I can’t breath The pain hurts so bad I can’t breath I’m painfully sad I can’t breath The worlds closing in I can’t breath I’m at my wit’s end I can’t breath My mind’s leaving me I can’t breath Let this breath set me free I can’t breath I don’t want to go on […]

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Internal Blue

January 5, 2012 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Acceptance, Chronic Pain or Illness, Depression, Healing

  Internal Blue I want to ask you something Where do I begin? I want to share with you Something from within But my fear is here Inside of me Clutching, holding tight Do I dare share what’s within? For fear you might not like I want for you to understand My good and bad […]

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Only (perhaps the hardest poem I will ever share publicly)

August 30, 2011 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Domestic Violence, Grief, Relationships/Marriage

  Only on the darkest day Only in my deepest sigh Only when you hear me scream Only when I try to cry Only in my lonely bed Only deep within my heart Only thru the choked back words Only. … Only at the break of day Only when the fog sits low Only in […]

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Today my pain is hidden…

April 14, 2011 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Depression, Gloomy or Darker Poems

Today my pain is hidden… But you can see it in the clouds It comes upon the thunder You can hear it in the rain You can smell it in the aftermath Of my slowly rotting brain Nature can deceive you The weather wraps it tight But it sits on my face plainly You can […]

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JM – JF

April 14, 2011 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Childhood Poems, Gloomy or Darker Poems

JM – JF Days of old Scars afflict the girls’ mind. Thin eggshell skull, Cracking with childhood memories. Sweat drips from a monsters brow. Blood, boiling in the veins. Seeping through the ever aging lines On a Childs hands. Hollow eyes sink into the swamp Of fear and corruption. Thoughts gasping for air, Wind blows […]

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Black

April 14, 2011 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Childhood Poems, Gloomy or Darker Poems

Black Black is the color of the bottom of a deep silent puddle, Or the background of a midnight moon. It creeps in on you when death is near, And it surrounds you when you’re blind or can’t hear. Black is the color you think when you’re all alone. Black is where monsters live, It’s […]

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