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Monthly Archives: August 2011

Only (perhaps the hardest poem I will ever share publicly)

August 30, 2011 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Domestic Violence, Grief, Relationships/Marriage

  Only on the darkest day Only in my deepest sigh Only when you hear me scream Only when I try to cry Only in my lonely bed Only deep within my heart Only thru the choked back words Only. … Only at the break of day Only when the fog sits low Only in […]

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Finding Julia…

August 30, 2011 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Domestic Violence, Healing, Relationships/Marriage

  I miss who I was I’m not who I am I left her behind Buried in sand I gave up my dreams I kissed them goodbye For the wrong sort of love From the mistakes gone by She feels lost in the ether Lost from my face I struggle to reach her To pull […]

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Foolish Youth, Misplaced Love

August 30, 2011 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Chronic Pain or Illness, Domestic Violence, Healing, Relationships/Marriage

  My heart hurt and then I met you I gave it away, wrong thing to do I wish I had waited, at least a few But my body spoke louder and gave in to you Over the years, my pain grew and grew What I thought was love, meant nothing to you The bruises, […]

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Trial Run Mistakes last forever

August 30, 2011 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Domestic Violence, Grief, Healing, Relationships/Marriage

  Trial Run Mistakes last forever I  don’t want to know What you’re doing now Just give my mind a break From the nightmares in my dreams The unforgotten screams Still rip thru my memories The fists against my skin The fingers on my neck Sometimes I wonder when I will finally forget How you […]

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Moving On…

August 30, 2011 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Relationships/Marriage, Songs

  You don’t listen Don’t choose to hear Fed up with pleading So the end is near It’s time to be moving on It’s time to be moving on I’ve done my crying Slept next to you alone I’m tired of living In this hell we call home Wishful thinking Of a lovely past Wasted […]

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Unwanted Goods

August 30, 2011 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Acceptance, Gloomy or Darker Poems, Grief, Relationships/Marriage

  Rejection from day one Son. It’s the way it is, the way it’s done. Don’t try to be more, try to break free This place of unwanted is your destiny. Not everyone is supposed to be born To be loved. Some are just here to get thru it For someone. Fucked as it is, […]

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Deep Sigh

August 30, 2011 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Relationships/Marriage

  To know it’s all darkness now There will be no sunshine come the new day The waves of warmth that once was Is gone now, replaced with cold certainty There is a loneliness in such knowledge There is no comfort in being no where Or perhaps knowing that you were here before And returning […]

Sunset at Seal

August 30, 2011 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Nature, Relationships/Marriage

  Tonight the moon slipped into the sea with a hardened sliver of me. I sat by the sand and felt it go, beneath the waters far below. It won’t resurface, I know it’s gone. Life gently pushes reality along. ~ August 30, 2011 ~ Marriage is hard. I wrote this because sometimes we can […]

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End of July 2011

August 4, 2011 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Nature

  Golden Rays Glittering Frond Floating gently across the pond. Summer sets – another day Whispering stars begin to play. Gently sets the fiery Sun Giving the Moon the Midnight run. ~ July 31, 2011 ~ Written while looking out the window at the palms around my Mum’s pool on the last day of July. […]

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