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A Depressing Weekend

April 10, 2012 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Depression

  Who is to blame for my melancholy? Is there such a thing? For if I am to believe my own misery and lack of worth Than it is my pitiful existence that has brought it on. Pity is not what I am after.  Nor  sympathy.  For my truth is what it is.  Painful. ~ […]

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Two more poems showing my dark state of mind at this time

January 5, 2012 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Depression, Gloomy or Darker Poems

  Thoughts Simple really, Really simple. Simply real, how I feel. The holidays are approaching – make them stop! Reverse, rewind – I don’t have the time to play this role. No desire to act this one through. What can I do? Please lets just pass these ones by. No tree, no joy, no Christmas […]

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January 5, 2012 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Depression, Domestic Violence, Gloomy or Darker Poems

    The same walls The same place,  space The same face The same time The same day Will it ever go away? This feeling of non existing Of really not being Painted on the wall A shadow after all Graffiti for the blind Tactile only in my mind The same dream The same song […]

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Breathless

January 5, 2012 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Depression, Domestic Violence, Gloomy or Darker Poems, Grief

  I can’t breath The pain hurts so bad I can’t breath I’m painfully sad I can’t breath The worlds closing in I can’t breath I’m at my wit’s end I can’t breath My mind’s leaving me I can’t breath Let this breath set me free I can’t breath I don’t want to go on […]

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Internal Blue

January 5, 2012 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Acceptance, Chronic Pain or Illness, Depression, Healing

  Internal Blue I want to ask you something Where do I begin? I want to share with you Something from within But my fear is here Inside of me Clutching, holding tight Do I dare share what’s within? For fear you might not like I want for you to understand My good and bad […]

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Free to be me!

April 14, 2011 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Childhood Poems, Depression, Friendship

Free to be me! Why me? Why can’t I be free? Free from what makes me sad! Why can’t I be free? Free to be next to what makes me happy! And when I go to find my happiness, I go down that very road. And when I come to the bend, I turn the […]

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Today my pain is hidden…

April 14, 2011 by admin | No Comments | Filed in Depression, Gloomy or Darker Poems

Today my pain is hidden… But you can see it in the clouds It comes upon the thunder You can hear it in the rain You can smell it in the aftermath Of my slowly rotting brain Nature can deceive you The weather wraps it tight But it sits on my face plainly You can […]

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